I just noticed that all of the bookmark buttons across the top of my internet window have shifted. For the past year, they’ve been an assortment of support sites, blogs and message boards. Now, there’s a mix of news blogs and baby- and birth-related links.

I don’t really know how I feel about you being farther and farther from me. We’ve scheduled our hospital tour, we’re filling out birth plans, the maternity leave paperwork has been mailed, and no doubt within a month the bag will be packed. All things we never made it to with you.

Should I be sad? Glad? Grateful? Mostly I’m just bewildered.

And tired.